Mary Peterson and her husband, Chad, live in Alberta, Canada. She talks here about her struggles with infertility for several years and ultimately how this faith-testing experience helped prepare her to be a mother.
Like most kids, when birthday time came around I always knew exactly what I wanted as a gift. I couldn’t wait to open that specific present, which usually came wrapped up in beautiful wrapping with a pretty bow. Sometimes I would get exactly what I had asked for; other times it wasn’t that way. I wish I could say that when I didn’t get what I wanted I was thrilled anyway, but that was not always the case. I usually sat wondering why I didn’t get the gift I had dreamed about.
A little over four years ago, my husband and I decided that we wanted to have children. We started trying and it just wasn’t working out. We tried different things and nothing seemed to give us the result we were hoping for. The issue was on my mind a lot of the time, and I was hoping for a solution soon.
When I was little, I just wanted a specific present and that was all that I could focus on. As an adult, I began to experience that familiar feeling: yearning for a specific thing, a specific answer to prayers, a specific outcome or result. I wanted to have children. Why wasn’t this happening for me?
As I was going through this trial, I understood something about faith. All along I wanted a certain outcome, or present. Little did I know, I was being helped with presents all along the way. Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ helped me to have comfort, helped me to not worry, helped me to find beauty in the bumps of life. I learned to celebrate the joys that I had and see so many different possibilities. That is the thing about faith. We put our faith in Christ not because everything will work out perfectly but because He makes the bumps in life bearable and helps change our perspective. We put our faith in Christ because these bumps are good for us; they help us learn and grow, and they help us become the best we can.
A little less than a year ago, we had the opportunity to work with infertility doctors. We hoped that it would work, and I am happy to tell you that it did. I remember the day that I found out I was pregnant, I felt overwhelmed with gratitude. This wasn’t necessarily because things had finally worked out, but because Christ had helped me all along the way. He journeyed along with me. The beautiful thing is that I know He will continue to be by my side through any bumps that life will throw at me. He is that way for me, and He is that way for you; we just have to have faith and gratitude.